somebody stop me

ughhhh
i'm suuuuch an idiot
i know i can't have him, yet i still try.
i know he's off limits, but i can't help thinking about him.
i know he doesn't feel the same, but i still have these insane thoughts.
i am so tired of bugging you all with this. i don't think anyone even reads this. i want to move on, but then i start thinking about him and it changes my mind. don't get me wrong, i love being friends with him, but it's just so. damn. hard. to deal with, being that close and knowing that that's as far as it will ever go, as well as its ever gone.
someone today told me to get my confidence up. i'm not sure that its possible at this point. i'm surrounded by amazing people all the time... you'd think that that would make me feel better about myself, but it just makes me feel like i pale in comparison. half the time i expect people to come up to me and ask about my friends... which happened the other day. its funny, okay, yeah sure, and i'll laugh and make jokes about it, but it hurts so bad... nothing makes you feel more worthless than "hey that friend of yours-- she was cute. can you hook it up for me?"
i feel so inadequate next to them. next to everyone.
i feel so empty.
i don't know what to do.