there's nothing here to hold on to

its not that far.
its not that far.
it really isn't that far.
seriously, 85 miles. how difficult is that? hour & a half. really.
"i'm so lonesome i could cry". yeah. pretty much.

sad when the person i talk to the most is 1400 miles away. got really used to talking to him... he's not online tonight :(

i shouldn't feel guilty about wanting to spend time with him. jeez. i miss him like hell.

there seems to be nothing but an immense spread of miles between me and where i'd rather be. what the fuck am i doing here?

just a tidbit

Once again I sit poised with my pen (marker) over the paper, feeling inspired but with nothing to convey. As usual, my mind wanders to the male species, two in particular. But as usual, words fail me. Considering I'm not entirely sure I even comprehend my feelings toward either one, trying to capture those feelings would render them incompletely...

recap

"A piece of your personal romantic puzzle might snap into place right about now, and the person who's holding it isn't someone you'd expect. Be ready for rapid enlightenment from an unusual source."

no shit. rapid enlightenment. just because a person seems nice & is attractive doesn't necessarily mean:
a) they're good at kissing
b) they're good at anything relating to kissing
c) they'll respect your choice to say no and not ask why

it makes you realize who is really important to you... who will respect you.

*sigh* again... creepy

A piece of your personal romantic puzzle might snap into place right about now, and the person who's holding it isn't someone you'd expect. Be ready for rapid enlightenment from an unusual source.

when it rains, it pours

so you miss me
and he wants me to come visit
and he's claiming me as his girlfriend (a joke, thank God. ew.)
and he says i'm hot/sexy/good looking
and he wouldn't mind me as a roommate (cuz i can cook, chill. lol)
and they want me pretty much cuz i have a vagina and didn't blow them off in the first five seconds

i need to learn to shut up.

speechless, over the edge

forget that
i lied
i do love you, but not in the ways that i thought.

its kind of a relief.

you're still the first one i think of... guess that will take a while to get over

i still want you to see me in that dress.

i still want to surprise you. i want to stun you so much that you just have to stop, take me in completely, and say "wow...", if you can speak at all.

is that too much to ask?

no need to complicate

...
*deep breath*
...iloveyou.
i love you.
i love you.
i love you.
i love you.
I love you.
i Love you.
i love You.
I Love You.
I LOVE YOU.
ILOVEYOU
ILOVEYOU
ILOVEYOU.
...i think.
...
i'm insane.