speechless, over the edge

forget that
i lied
i do love you, but not in the ways that i thought.

its kind of a relief.

you're still the first one i think of... guess that will take a while to get over

i still want you to see me in that dress.

i still want to surprise you. i want to stun you so much that you just have to stop, take me in completely, and say "wow...", if you can speak at all.

is that too much to ask?