I get attached easily. Sometimes it's not such a good thing.
I like getting to know people, but I don't actively think up ways to get to know them. I don't usually ask many questions, but I seem to prefer to answer questions about myself. Odd.
I don't think this will be a very long blog today. I'm more distractable than usual.
There are several things I should be doing. Like accounting homework. Or laundry. Or SOMETHING productive. Instead I'm laying here thinking too much about too many things.
Sigh.
Tuesday, January 25, 2011
Thursday, January 20, 2011
Now I Gotta Cut Loose
Auditioning is scary.
I'm not sure which is worse, having to perform in front of a huge crowd of people or just a few people, but both ideas scare me silly. Which is odd since I've been auditioning so much for the school productions recently. Initial jitters often go away fairly quickly once I see that everyone else is just as nervous...that is, until the singing auditions come along. Then I convert into a shaky shame-filled mess & feel embarrassed and hate myself for wanting to do the damn play in the first place.
Over all I think the auditions went pretty well :) The cast list should be posted tomorrow.
Slow day today. Woke up a little late, missed the first 15 minutes of class, but still was able to finish the lab and leave by 8:45, probably way before the rest of the class. Currently holding down the couch at my grandparent's, trying to make it look like I'm being responsible and looking up accounting & bookkeeping careers. Which, to be fair, I am, but not as in-depth as I probably should. But it's not even 11 am yet, I don't want to exert myself so much this early in the morning ;)
Work tonight. Had a dream where my managers finally came to their senses and basically said "You know, fuck it, you're the department head now, you're the one that knows how to do everything anyway". It was a good dream.
I'm starting to feel ambitious. Like I should be doing something productive. I almost wish I still had accounting homework.
I'm not sure which is worse, having to perform in front of a huge crowd of people or just a few people, but both ideas scare me silly. Which is odd since I've been auditioning so much for the school productions recently. Initial jitters often go away fairly quickly once I see that everyone else is just as nervous...that is, until the singing auditions come along. Then I convert into a shaky shame-filled mess & feel embarrassed and hate myself for wanting to do the damn play in the first place.
Over all I think the auditions went pretty well :) The cast list should be posted tomorrow.
Slow day today. Woke up a little late, missed the first 15 minutes of class, but still was able to finish the lab and leave by 8:45, probably way before the rest of the class. Currently holding down the couch at my grandparent's, trying to make it look like I'm being responsible and looking up accounting & bookkeeping careers. Which, to be fair, I am, but not as in-depth as I probably should. But it's not even 11 am yet, I don't want to exert myself so much this early in the morning ;)
Work tonight. Had a dream where my managers finally came to their senses and basically said "You know, fuck it, you're the department head now, you're the one that knows how to do everything anyway". It was a good dream.
I'm starting to feel ambitious. Like I should be doing something productive. I almost wish I still had accounting homework.
Wednesday, January 19, 2011
What a pointless waste of space
Hello, 2011. so far you've been pretty shitty.
You could also say the same about this waste of space blog that i've been keeping.
As much as i'd love to just scrap it, i think i'll keep it around, try to change direction. Some of the posts aren't bad. most of them are overly whiny though, i might hide those or something.
I'm still uncertain on my writing style. Inner monologue seems to be my go-to method, however, with the exceptions of my random flashes of inspiration and contemplation. And i'll try to keep the "omg i miss him :,( " to a minimum. Goodness knows the world could use less of that.
Auditions soon. More later.
You could also say the same about this waste of space blog that i've been keeping.
As much as i'd love to just scrap it, i think i'll keep it around, try to change direction. Some of the posts aren't bad. most of them are overly whiny though, i might hide those or something.
I'm still uncertain on my writing style. Inner monologue seems to be my go-to method, however, with the exceptions of my random flashes of inspiration and contemplation. And i'll try to keep the "omg i miss him :,( " to a minimum. Goodness knows the world could use less of that.
Auditions soon. More later.
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