am i a different person?

lately i've been feeling like i'm not the same as i used to be. i know its true to a point, but there are times when i feel like i've grown away from people...i still want my friends, but i'm not as close to them as i used to be. we've grown up, moved on, and honestly it kind of makes me sad. i know i'm just being random, but it really surprises me that the things that i've always been into- 80's rock, classic cars, etc,- my friends didn't know about until now.
i want to make up with friends who i haven't talked to in a long time. there are only a few exceptions to this, but they aren't in contact with me in any way anymore. in a weird way i want to go back to high school, just to see if anything would be different now that i feel different.
self confidence is a hard thing to build when you're constantly trying to figure out everything else. but i think i've finally succeeded... i feel like i know a little bit about myself. i still have no idea what i want to do, but i know what i don't want to do. that helps some. i'm learning from mistakes, despite their initial impact on me. i'm trying to grow as a person.

i'm still the same person i was before. i still value my friends and family over anything else. i'll still sit up with a friend until four in the morning, just listening, when they need someone to listen to them. its just how i am, i put their needs before my own, and i'll do that with anyone who needs it. it makes me sad to know that people don't want to open up to me. i don't ask unless they give the ok, and i most definitely don't tell. anyone who knows me should know that.
i'm also trying not to be the person i have been. i'm trying not to be the one that freaks out at minor details, to hold grudges, to "fall in love" repeatedly. i'm over that. sure i talk a lot, but most of it is just being lonely in general, when there's no one there for me to talk to.

i guess what i'm trying to say is, i'm still initially the same person, if you just briefly talk to me, but in reality, i've changed. i hope for the better. i'm trying to branch out and be myself and not who everyone wants me to be. bear with me, its kinda tough lol.

*tell my mother, tell my father, i've done the best i can
to make them realize this is my life, i hope they understand
i'm not angry i'm just saying
sometimes goodbye is a second chance.*

text me. any time. if you need to, want to, or are just bored. i always text back.