i probably shouldn't post this

It's finally here: 2012. I had such high hopes for today. First I hoped for an abnormally early night off work, a fantastic party to go to, and (as pathetic and meaningless as it sounds) a New Year's kiss with the boyfriend.
Upon seeing the schedule for this week, my first hope was dashed. Working until 11pm definitely hinders my plans. Still, I hoped for a party and being able to spend time with boyfriend.
When the 29th rolled around and still no one said anything about a party, I started to panic a little. I asked around, but no concrete plans had been made.
Then my parents told me we were having people over. Success? Maybe. We were inviting friends over for dinner, I would be able to see them on my lunch break and then after work. It even seemed as if I could get to spend time with boyfriend.
Unfortunately, boyfriend was unable to attend. He was asleep, like last year.
Some people came over, but when I got home for my lunch, one family was already leaving, and then the other family left shortly after I got home after my shift (half an hour early).
No parties.
No New Year's kiss.
No boyfriend.
And then, I go on facebook and see an open invitation to go over to a friend's apartment for a party.
Great. Hours late.
So I go on to chat. There was apparently an all-day hangout on google+. Which I also missed.
So it seems as if I'm starting this year much like I spent a majority of 2011: sitting at home on the couch, alone, on the computer, unable to sleep, hating nearly everything.