should i say it, should i tell you how i feel

so there's something i want to say
but i'm not going to let myself. not yet. but i want to. and its entirely too frustrating.
its not something that can be texted, and i don't trust myself with the phone. its so cliche that i'd hate to say it at an inappropriate time. i almost slipped up today. several times.

i'm waiting to hear it first. but i'm afraid i'll be waiting a very long time.