or perhaps not.

i don't know if i've ever felt so alone.
seems no one talks to me, if they do its of little importance
the people i want to talk to are busy so the chat is brief to nonexistent.

i'm falling. not in a good way.
i suppose its time to pick myself back up again.

maybe i should be more guarded next time. or maybe there won't be a next time at all. i'm wondering if anything i thought was true to begin with, or if it was just my warped sense of reality.

sounds fabulous...and yes, i do know who i'd choose

The emotional Moon will finish off your leisure time with just one more red-hot dose of passion, which doesn't sound too hard to take for a sign as sensual and earthy as yourself. Of course, you may need to fight off a slew of admirers, (yes, again) even though you know perfectly well who you'll choose when and if you have the option. Better start making up your mind now. You definitely have the option -- if anyone does.

do you trust me enough

i am barely breathing, and i can't find the air
don't know who i'm kidding, imagining you care

sick of sounding like a lame romance novel
sick of thinking it should be one way when i know it doesn't matter
sick of always wanting to talk about it
sick of always thinking about what might or might not happen

i want to go with it
i want it to not be something secret
i want to have some sort of confidence about it

everything is so uncertain.
***
you better let somebody love you
before its too late