whoever says kissing is overrated

needs to be shot at dawn. or needs to be kissed the right way, apparently. lol
it was so amazing... unlike anything i could have imagined.
its such an intoxicating feeling, just thinking about it. i could tell what he wanted, but he's too much of a gentleman to act on those feelings. the way he held me, the way he spoke, even how he looked at me, i could tell. such an incredible feeling. he took control when he kissed me, but only after making sure i was ok with it.

sigh. it needs to be friday again.

i know what i want

sadly, he's 85 miles away
its so strange... i don't know how long i'll want him or even why. i just know that i'm tired of thinking about it. i want to just go for it. i want to make mistakes. i want to just live in the moment for once, to hell with the consequences. i can't be cautious all my life. i need a change, something exciting, something that i can look back on and share a secret smile.
i'm trying to figure out what he's thinking, but i don't want to sound like i'm trying to define exactly what we are. i'm just curious.
i know that he wants me though. even if its just a physical attraction. there's no way he'd talk to me like that if he didn't.

no focus. at all.

omg this is nuts. i can't focus. i'm going insane, but its sooooooo amazing

so i'm totally LOLing

so i'm totally LOLing at my horoscope for today. and we're both Taurus, so its even funnier.
here's the quickie:

Push yourself forward romantically by any means necessary -- you've got the right kind of good energy to really make a difference! It's a good time for you to step up to someone new.

and the extended:

For the past couple of weeks, you've been thinking that you might have a secret admirer, and you're absolutely right. Your mystery suitor will let those feelings slip today, in a very minor way -- so minor, in fact, that if you weren't as sharp as you are, and if you didn't pay attention as well as you do, you might not notice it. As it is, you'll need to decide whether to ignore the slip, or have some fun -- which, of course, depends on your relationship situation.

ROFL

oh. my. god.

so
that
is quite possibly
the most unexpected
and
hottest
thing
ever.

holy
fucking
shit.