yo' momma's research methodology is so flawed...

life is crazy....
on the one hand, the most amazing pair of people i've met are no longer a pair.
and then there's the one that i thought might be different... he has a wonderful girl, and i'm truly happy for them.
and then there's this whole fiasco. i can see why she's upset, but honestly, i have to agree with the parents on this one. just slow down, chica. it won't kill you to wait. (or keep it in your pants, honestly).
lawn & garden boy? meh. he's cool. but just a friend. not much spark. so i guess i'm just back to me.
<3

sorry, this isn't my department

once again, i don't know what i'm doing. i know i like being around him, i know he's a friend. but what i don't know is what will happen. ughhhhh, i'm so tired of this. why can't it be simple? why can't it be "hey, i like you" and "oh really? cool, i like you too" and just go with it?
i guess i'm just tired of the same old song & dance. i get to know a guy, start hanging out with him, start thinking things, and then BAM, something goes wrong and its awkward for me. i'm tired of being lost, i'm tired of these stupid blogs i write. i apologize to everyone who reads them. i know i'm annoying. i just wish i knew what to do.
everyone is telling me to just go with it, see where it goes. but how do i do that and make this time be different? its confusing to me. its good advice, yes, but every other time that i've "just gone with it", absolutely nothing has happened. i seriously need a tutor for this or something lol.
i'm just so tired of this. this whole wishful thinking thing. i'm ready to stop with the wishing. it just sets me up for dissapointment.